Time to get more than 5 hours of sleep tonight for once. Woot.
Actually this kind of stuff is more appropriate for twitter is it. Except I don’t use twitter :P
Yay for nonexistent chain of command. Leadership is a gift and a duty, not a privilege.
until you realize you’re starting to become apathetic towards the events that lead you there in the first place. I don’t want that to happen.
Or should I say “friends.”
I mean, I half expected it to happen anyways, considering the track record with the relationship between these group of individuals and myself. I thought perhaps things have changed in a semester.
But if you made plans and included me already, then for Christ’s sake why don’t you fucking let me know if you change them.
And why is it that whenever I think I’ve found people who appreciate me enough to not let me down and vice versa, ominous external powers outside of my control never fail in attempts to play the role of saboteur. It’s creepy. And frustrating. Almost like the feeling that I’m being haunted.
So once again here I am alone on a Friday night, forever the outcast, forever the one who plasters on a smile and pretends to not give a shit. “Dan, I don’t understand how you’re always so happy, it almost annoys me!” What? Can you really be that oblivious? There are things I’m capable of that I wouldn’t hesitate to put in motion if I didn’t believe in an unconditional love of the sick, twisted specimens of life known as humanity. But no matter. Heaven knows these things happens for a reason, I just wish I knew what that reason was…
i am in no way opposed to this :)
So I was talking to a friend recently regarding some theological issues. Great reason to spend a night up late talking during finals week.
for me to admit that I’m wrong?
Probably more than it’s worth to pretend that I’m not…
No, seriously…I don’t know what I am anymore. Game over.
Much in common, after all.
The song “Life of Leaving Home” by Yellowcard comes to mind…
…wait what’s a cat doing on my blog LOL
There is a hidden hour between one day and the next
Ungrounded anxiety and despair. There are still forty-four days until the end of the semester. I doubt You too much still.
Spring break means time, lots of it. And for me, most of which is occupied with full-time work. Yet the things that normally wouldn’t come up and bother me like to swirl around the empty space in my head that engineering would normally occupy. Now to get it all out of my system before I sink back into that suffocating pattern of homework and studying and exams and the never-ending stress overload.
Zeroeth Law: You must play the game.
First Law: You can’t win.
Second Law: You can’t break even.
Third Law: You can’t quit the game.
